Everything's Awesome.

Bad things happening in the past couple of weeks have picked up speed. We'll see what happens in the next few weeks, fingers crossed everyone will emerge only slightly singed, and happy, healthy, etc.  At this point, I have no idea what future plans are, everything's put on hold. Oh, and I need a new car. On top of all that.

Meanwhile, in Random...

Listening to friends talking about being careful about a stomach virus going around yet again, and another one asking for recommendation for a good allergy med that won't put her into a coma in ten minutes.
I think, that I would just not know what to do with all this medicine and these doctor visits.
I don't even have the pollen allergies that everyone else seems to get. The stuff is covering everything like a yellow blanket, and it doesn't do anything to me. Adding that to the list of stuff I'm thankful I don't suffer from.
I'm not complaining, I'm very grateful to have always been pretty healthy. Contagion and communicable illness-wise. I don't get sick really, don't get/transmit infections/viruses. My body is not too familiar with anti-biotics. Never had any serious adult infection. I think the last time I had strep was in elementary school. Chicken pox, too. After that, nothing much. Don't get the flu, never had the shot. Never had the thing with the wisdom teeth, friend did she sounded miserable. Never had braces either. Never broken a bone. Hmm, never needed to be hospitalized. Never had anything removed, like appendix or tonsils or whatever... Never needed blood...
Yes, I think I"m definitely grateful and am sure to not complain about the little things. 

Now, non-contagion/communicable/virus/bacteria stuff.  I got some of that.
I have nodules on my vocal cords, which when aggravated will shut this whole talking thing down. This is why I can no longer sing, and how my voice dropped an octave or two a long time ago. I occasionally run into people who remembered I used to sing and ask if I still do. Nope. I keep saying I"m going to see a specialist, let them burn the nodules off or whatever. However, the thought of lasers in my throat...  It's kinda like when the doctor told me they couldn't figure out what I'd done to my ankle because the swelling never went down, so they were going to "scope it", take a look inside there, see what's up...
I left, have not ever seen that man again. Though at this point I can tell it's just healed over with scar tissue in there. Good ol' ankle, way to walk it off.
This weaker ankle may or may not have had anything to do with the drama in the bottom of my right foot. Many needles have gone into that foot, at the bones. Doc told me to lay off dancing for a bit, and at least stay off toes, out of releve.  I did do that for awhile.  But the problem is when you're feeling better—and I always feel great when I'm good—is you're NOT really as better as you think, and you just end up f'ing it up.  Rachel, aka, Arbee, told us during class once to try to have patience, more than anything, after an injury, even small ones, and give your muscles and tendons and everything time to fully heal without aggravating it, because in the end you will only prolong the recovery process, and increase likelihood of total re-injury. TRUTH. Learned it long way...  Still learnin' it.

I have an f'ed up spine.  It's partly hereditary, partly stuff I did.
My neck is not awesome. I have to be very careful with it now, or aggravate the old injury. One day I'll go back to the specialist to find out what therapies, if any, can be done. I get very dizzy when doing turns now, I don't spot correctly. But if I spot correctly, I'm closer to aggravating it the neck, soooo... Yeah. Can't win. Trying very hard to have patience.